“When you look back on 2018, what do you think of? Which of your achievements are you most proud of?”
These questions dropped into my mailbox earlier this week. They’re good questions to reflect on. But, to be honest, at this time of year I always start to feel a bit jaded.
It’s a combination of things: the dark nights; the cold temperatures; the rain (or the snow, as happened this week); Christmas muzak blaring everywhere; and the fake forced jollity.
Not feeling the Christmas spirit.
Just overwhelmed. Exhausted. Jaded.
I’ve still got things on my work 2018 to-do list that haven’t been crossed off. These tasks keep niggling like the start of a bad toothache that gets worse instead of fading.
It doesn’t help that since my Dad died suddenly on Jan 31st 2016, I haven’t really felt much like celebrating Christmas.
He loved it. The tinsel, the razzmataz, the telly, turkey, mince pies, the lot. It still hurts to be reminded of all the things he loved when he’s not here to share in any of it. In bygone years, I got into it at the last minute, especially when I saw how my Dad got into it. He was ready to enjoy having his family around him. So, I’d shut the office door on work, at least from Christmas Eve until after Boxing Day, to make the most of this time of year.
Why am I telling you this? Well, I’m wondering if you feel the same at this time of year (exhausted, overwhelmed, or jaded)? Or, is it just me?
So, what’s the answer?